The Fear Of Following Your Passion

“There are 7 billion people on this planet who I have not met,
and 195 countries I have not visited.
Yet I am stuck in this insignificant town,
Being pressured into making decisions about my future,
When I barely even know who I am.” – Anonymous

[Indonesia – Bali – Uluwatu Temple – 2016]

Following your passion is scary for so many reasons. And it was quite a long journey before I realized what my passions are (and I’m still discovering them) and trying to change my unhappy state of life.

I was and I’m still doing a job which I don’t enjoy AT ALL, just because I wanted to have that feeling of ‘having safety’ in my career choice. So, I wouldn’t end up living under a bridge in ten years. Yeah, I know, it’s a bit dramatic.

[Somewhere on an island in Thailand – Found in an abandoned hostel – 2016]

But that is tremendous stupid for so many reasons! Don’t get me wrong – of course we always need a stable income to buy food and pay rent and all that jazz – but we don’t have to forget all about our passions like I did.
There are so many ways to make your dreams come true and still make money out of it. You just need to be creative and find solutions because the opportunities and knowledge are endless nowadays… everything you need to know about ‚how to make your dreams come true‘ is easy to find online or it’s  already written in a book.

[Stockholm – Winter 2017]

What is the reason why I’m trying to finally change my life? It’s because I got too unhappy with the career choice I’ve forced myself to go on.
At the beginning it was easy to convince myself that I like the job. I tried so damn hard to see just the good parts of it and that I could help so many people with it.

[Antwerpen – March 2017]

But not long after, I got more and more stressed and I felt miserable when I started thinking that I still needed more than four years before I finally would get this degree. I kept telling myself I would be ‘financially free’ if I would go this way and THEN I could follow my passion.
It sounds so strange to me while writing this down but back then, it totally made sense in my brain because I put this illusion on it and became blind… and that’s why we need to realize how big the impact of ‘the rules of society’ is on us.

[Spring 2017]

Of course, on the other side, ‘society’ is not totally wrong about ‚going the safe way‘ either but if we put the rules which would suit most people in our society also on us and it makes us depressed and hopeless – then it’s the wrong way to go.
I’m sure not a fan of ‘just doing the f* you want’ because I will still finish my degree (but then definitely not going further with it) next year and that way I will have more options of doing all kinds of jobs but in the mean time I will make sure that I do something I love. I will get creative and find solutions to get a stable income but not by doing a job I clearly hate for the next ten years or so.


So, here I am and trying this scary thing of putting my voice online after I kept my opinions to myself for too many years.
I have this little vision in my head of making this world a better place and I’m sure I can achieve many things if I just keep believing in myself.
And I hope you will too.

[Thailand – National Park]

‚Do not let your fire go out, spark by irreplaceable spark in the hopeless swamps of the not-quite, the not-yet, and the not-at-all. Do not let the hero in your soul perish in lonely frustration for the life you deserved and have never been able to reach. The world you desire can be won. It exists.. it is real.. it is possible.. it’s yours.‘ – by Ayn Rand

‚Keep your dreams alive. Understand to achieve anything requires faith and belief in yourself, vision, hard work, determination, and dedication. Remember all things are possible for those who believe.‘ – by Gail Devers

‚If you end up with a boring, miserable life because you listened to your mom, your dad, your teacher, your priest, or some guy on television telling you how to do your shit, then you deserve it.‘ – Anonymous


Escape To Paris

After being stuck at home for months and months and getting stuck in a daily routine and didn’t feel inspired by anything anymore, I took the oppurtinity to go on a weekend trip to Paris.

One of the best things was that I just paid 50 € on this three-day-trip! Perfect for a student on a tiny budget. The reason behind this is that a city next to my home town has a partner city near Paris called Rosny-Sous-Bois and we could stay with a host family for two days. So we were staying with locals and could experience the french way of living a little bit.


My host family consisted of an elderly couple around 80 years old. Their names were André and Andrée. I think they were just meant for each other.
They were the lovliest people I’ve met in a long time. On top of that I was forced to speak french with them because that is the only language they speak.

I got so inspired by them because of their kindness and caring. They always had the biggest smile and joined every planned tour, even though Andrée seemed pretty ill but she never complained about the long walks she had to endure during the tour. And in the three days I always just saw them talk nicely and with respect to each other. When I’m old, I want to achieve the same for sure.

When we arrived on Friday evening at around 9 o’clock, we drove to their cute house at first and had a proper dinner with three menus in french style. Afterwards I was super tired and just wanted to sleep but they took me out to Paris at night and it was totally worth it because I had an awesome view at the Eiffel Tower at night.


The first thing we did the next morning was a bus tour with the entire group. And when I was sitting on top of the bus – feeling the wind and sun in my face – this moment felt so right for me and I was thinking ‚Can it get any better than that?‘. It made me realize again that I should follow my passion and do the things more that I enjoy.

Everytime I’m traveling I feel freedom and I’m grateful that I found this passion in my life.


Afterwards we went on a boat tour and firstly, I was really excited for it but soon after we started, all the tourist jumped up from their seats and ran to the ceiling to take one million selfies and pictures of the scenery. André and I, we looked at each other and smiled. Because of the language barrier, we couldn’t express our thoughts but we were properly thinking that this cleary destroyed the romantic flair of the boat tour.

In the evening the group came together again to eat dinner in a nice restaurant and I took the oppurtinity to take some nice pictures on the balcony.

The next morning I woke up quiet exhausted and tired because of the lack of sleep but I was still motivated for the last group activity – a walk through Rosny-Sous-Bois. We visited the national french circus and went to a little market.

After the walk it was time to say goodbye and we started our journey back home.

This little trip left me with so much inspiration and passion and how exciting this summer is going to be when I will go on holiday in France for one month.

So stay tuned for more travel-journeys.